I realize that I have been lazy and mostly have been writing in my Swedish blog. But I seriously don’t know what to write in this one. I am not a multi cultural wannabe anymore, and I’m considering to delete this blog, but at the same time I don’t want to delete it.

Anyway, I’m going to write a small report about the Swedish Democratic Party, a xenophobic party in Sweden whose values I don’t support. It’s an interesting topic, but just because it’s related to studies, I’m not studying. There is a pile of books lying on my table and often, whatever I’m doing, I’m thinking that should be studying instead of:  reading novels, blogging, writing in my diary, chatting on msn, listening to music on youtube, or whatever.

Sometimes I’m at the university library and can’t afford myself to study, I can’t focus, or I’m sleeping (yes, I can sleep in the library).Sometimes I just want to lay down and look at the roof – that’s what I’m capable for. How can I ever think about going to the US? If I’m so bad in studying, how can I be able to study abroad?

Like, it’s really not my style to study abroad. I have never been travelling alone, seiously, while I know people who have been travelling abroad by themselves. I have been dreaming about going to the US to study since 2001 and now when it’s maybe becoming true, I am kind of scared, but at the same time I’m not. It seems like people around me have undersood that I’m going to the US, and that it’s just me that haven’t understood it yet!